All is dark…dark…dark…

我的明天会幸福么。

医生说我营养不良。。。

就我这么又白又胖得还能营养不良。。

恩。好吧。。我的肉吃的不够多。。

感情是矛盾的

到底什么是我想要的

想对自己说抱歉

因为我真的不知道。

9 months has passed, but I did not see any improvement.

When i was pareparing for the Exam for the graduate, I had to go the library morning, and go to the super market afternoon, and then return home, cooking.

When I started to work in Resound, the situation was not changed, even after I worked 8 hours in company,  I came back home, still need to cook, when she was playing computer games or singing outside! If there is no vegertables at home, my husband considered it as my fault not to buy something. Why!! There is an retired lady in the house, and why me to buy? I do not think it is my reponsibility to do it. I fight again it, and a family war explored. My mother-in-law asked me not to return home. while,I really do not want to return to here. It is not my home, it is your house.

Seems a little far from the topic. Come back to the point, communication and respect. I do not feel you have any repect to me. Yes, y ou have right to scold your son, talk to him loudly, and compliant. But it does not mean that you have such authority on me. Communication does not effect as I thought before. I try to comunicate with you, but everything I talked to you became an excuse to you. so many tiny things, and I do not want to list here. But I am annoyed by this kind of life.

I want to leave here. I  do not hope you will love me, but I do need your repect. impossible, so, I want to leave here.

Dear, you are also silent when your mother scold me,or anger on me. It lets me down.  I am not sure whether I still love you or not.

I cannot feel where is your love…..

这两周连续加班。。感觉很久没有这么累了。。

两个星期的远程培训，原来听得懂的还是懂的，不懂得还是不懂。。

第一次跟澳大利亚和新西兰的客户联系就摆了个大乌龙。。。弄混了。。

好吧。。。总有脑子秀逗的时候。。

明天开始生活会更加美好。。

小白加油。。。

我可以在礼服店满场转着，挑选衣服，然后穿上，看着老公惊艳的，开心的，皱眉头的各种表情。。

可是当这一天真的到来，我却只能看着别的新娘满场飞舞，老公出谋划策，而我却只能一个人。。

我真的对你很失望。

是的，我都挑好衣服了，还要你来干嘛。

你不能见证我最幸福的时候，我要你干嘛。。。。

为什么每次在应该是很幸福的时候却总有情况。订婚， 结婚，拍婚纱。。为什么我每次都要哭，而你却那么漠然。

我伤心的时候，你也沉默。

我真的很难想起你有做过什么让我开心的事情。总是不断地对我提要求。

如果在我不知所措，难过的时候，你也只是沉默地对我。我要你做什么。

如果我很完美，什么事情都可以做得很好，我要你做什么。

我真的很失望。。。

我不要再哭着回家。

你让我流的泪已经够多的了。

周日的傍晚，把自己关在房间里哭。

刘大夫人走了，威国公苟且活着只是为了等着一个理由去见大夫人。

黑胖也走了。她是明白了，自己丈夫，除了小家，还有大国。

云嶂，我一个人私奔去了，不等你了。
离开你的理由，可以说上一整天，可是非得陪在你身边的理由，似乎都已经不在了。
自此以后，海阔凭鱼跃，天高任鸟飞。

喜欢和你在一起的理由有很多。

不想和你在一起的理由也有很多。

生活总是在矛盾中继续着。

我不喜欢被拘束的生活，可是又舍不得偶尔温暖的拥抱。

开心的时候是小白

不开心时是老妪。

我不喜欢做家庭妇女， 尤其在懒懒的周末还要被逼着做饭。

我才25岁， 不是52岁。。。。

我可以多想么？

我讨厌今天回家的这种气氛。

我是个外人么？

好吧。。